When Mark E Smith died last month the world was shocked and devastated in equal measure. But none more so than his wife Pamela Vander. She has now taken to social media to share a touching tribute to her late husband and The Fall lead singer.

With his funeral now passed it appears Pamela Vander has now had some time to reflect on not only the final days of Mark’s life but also who he was as a person to the very end.She detailed his struggle against Lung and Kidney Cancer, but still continuing to make his life his own. “He was full of fresh ideas for The Fall, and the lads had his back 100% on everything. And then one terrifying diagnosis turned everything upside down.”

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“After that, Mark said yes to every treatment, every way to stay here, and I can honestly say that he was the toughest but most loving man I’ve ever known, a real warrior. And I am so proud of him for trying so hard, for trying harder and harder even through every set-back. Pure valiance. True to himself. His mind was getting stronger and stronger so even with diagnosis, we remained hopeful that maybe something would work. He was a positive force, and despite the pain, he was always focused on getting up, and getting out. Right til the end. ”

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The tribute continued to show how shocking and quickly these situations can unravel and the love that Mark had for his wife and his work above all else. Pamela continued “So thank-you, near and far, for being fans of Mark E. Smith. For loving him and believing in him and his sounds and visions. We have lost a genius. Life, the written word and music will never, ever be the same. But we will feel Mark whenever it rains, and whenever the music plays.”

We may have lost a legend but she lost her husband and our thoughts and prayers go out to her.

Read the full posts below.

PART ONE: Hello all. Wasn’t gonna break the silence as I’ve been madly focused on planning Mark’s funeral service which had to be fit for a king, because that’s how I saw him. Now I don’t really know what to do or say anymore as everything has stopped. But feel it’s only right to let you all know what was really going on with Mark E. Smith, and how much he fought to stay here. I can confirm that Mark was battling lung and kidney cancer, which had already spread beyond any real help. I mean, it was all finally rolling again for Mark, and the cruelty and timing of what happened… well, I don’t understand it. He was happy and excited and we’d found a second home a couple of years back, moved in, set up shop. Total privacy. He loved it there, wrote a lot, walked in the garden, we watched films. He was full of fresh ideas for The Fall, and the lads had his back 100% on everything. And then one terrifying diagnosis turned everything upside down. After that, Mark said yes to every treatment, every way to stay here, and I can honestly say that he was the toughest but most loving man I’ve ever known, a real warrior. And I am so proud of him for trying so hard, for trying harder and harder even through every set-back. Pure valiance. True to himself. His mind was getting stronger and stronger so even with diagnosis, we remained hopeful that maybe something would work. He was a positive force, and despite the pain, he was always focused on getting up, and getting out. Right til the end.

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PART TWO: It all went downhill whilst in hospital a few weeks back. It was terrifying. I can’t put it any other way. I’m sorry. It was all so fast. Still a blur. Mark was at home with me when he passed, just the two of us alone which is what he wanted. He was at peace in the end. The nurses tell me to take comfort in that, we got home, his last wish. But it’s too shocking, the speed of it all. It feels… too cruel right now. But maybe it is my duty to Mark to pass on a message and let people know that he was fighting so fucking hard… and even though he’s not here, I know what he would say to all his friends, fans and admirers… ‘I love you all but cannot embrace you all’ So thank-you, near and far, for being fans of Mark E. Smith. For loving him and believing in him and his sounds and visions. We have lost a genius. Life, the written word and music will never, ever be the same. But we will feel Mark whenever it rains, and whenever the music plays. From a personal point of view it’s hard to breathe. I’ve lost my soulmate, the love of my life. We were just happy to be with each other, even in silence. But now the silence is like hell. The pain is unbelievable. We had so many incredible days & nights, so many plans… but I’m not angry, I’m proud that Mark tried so hard for us. He really gave it his all. The bravest man I’ve ever and will ever know. And the funniest. I love you my man, my king, my Mark. I’ll love you forever. Always yours, Pam

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