Hayley Williams talks about depression, suicide and therapy in new interview with Zane Lowe
Hayley Williams is on the promotion run of her upcoming solo album, Petals For Armor, and she stopped by to speak to Zane Lowe about brutally honest topics such as suicide, therapy and how her dog saved her life.
The singer was open and honest in the interview, showing perhaps the deeply connective work that she has produced under her new moniker Petals For Armor. It is likely to be an album that works through some of her most deeply rooted emotions.
Lowe and Hayley Williams spoke about suicidal thoughts, how her dog saved her life as well as the influences behind the new record and the family she adopted by being in Paramore.
Speaking about suicidal thoughts, William opened up: “During After Laughter [Paramore’s 2017 album] it was really rough. My dog is the reason I’m alive, because he would’ve been waiting on me to get home, no matter what. You know how little sweet little puppies sit and they wait, I couldn’t think about it. Whoa, never cried in an interview before. I just couldn’t.”
She continued: “And I’m glad, you know? Because life is still hard. It didn’t become a breeze overnight or anything and it’s been years and it’s still not a breeze, but it’s so rich and now that I’m taking account of all these feelings and I’m feeling all of them, there’s this beautiful rainbow versus just the deep end.”
The new album, Petals For Armor, sees Williams tackle grief and her depression, she told Lowe: “The way that I experience my anger is heat in my face, it’s visceral. I think I mostly tap into it without shame when it’s for the sake of somebody else. When it’s for me I go straight into shame…Taylor’s [York] the first person that ever told me anger is neither a bad nor a good emotion. It’s just an emotion. It’s a feeling. It’s a thing. You don’t have to assign it to something. Just let it breathe. Just feel it.”
Williams also opened up about the sanctity of being in a band, explaining: “Why I chose being in a band, it’s like a gang, it’s like a family… I wanted a family so bad, and I still do, and in a lot of ways, the part of me that I think loves to nurture and mother and support myself and my community, it feels so counterintuitive to me, to come here and be like, we’re probably going to talk about Paramore, because a) it’s a big part of my life but b) I cannot separate myself from it.”
She added: “And I’m here to talk about other songs I wrote that weren’t for a Paramore album but this is a big deal for me. This is a growing moment and it’s a challenging moment.”
You can listen to the full interview here and catch a clip of the candid conversation below.