UK rapper, slowthai, has opened up about his struggles in dealing with ADHD in a new Twitter post where he said: “I build myself up from pieces of other people and when I look in the mirror I shiver ’cause I feel like I’m wearing someone else’s skin.”
The post comes shortly after the rapper, real name Tyron Frampton, was forced to apologise following incidents at the NME Awards show involving both confronting the crowd and sexually harassing Katherine Ryan.
It may have provided slowthai with the time and space for reflection he needed as soon after Frampton’s “shameful acts”, the artist has shared his ongoing battle with ADHD to have a normal life.
“I often laugh when I feel anxious, this awkward laughter only shows how uncomfortable I feel,” wrote slowthai on Twitter. “I’ve always been socially awkward and found it hard to articulate to people how I truly feel, often lie. Sometimes it’s harder to stay quiet than force conversation and it makes my skin crawl.”
He continued: “I build myself up from pieces of other people and when I look in the mirror I shiver ’cause I feel like I’m wearing someone else’s skin.” Later in the post slowthai says the condition has left him with a “need to be loved” and even suggests the struggles have become too much to bear, “I think about the end every night. But I’m too afraid to say goodbye,” he wrote.
“ADHD all I want is your undivided attention. The what ifs. I’m selfish and I never cared for sharing. If I was gone would they remember me and would they hurt as I hurt. I’m trying to learn to confine [confide] in myself cause I can’t explain why I feel these things. Even though I laugh, I ask what’s funny.”
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