Nick Cave shares some sage advice for a 16-year-old about body confidence
Nick Cave’s release of Ghosteen was an open door into the deeply vulnerable music that has been adding the score to Nick Cave’s life. He maintains that vulnerability is the best moments of our life and that “[it’s] the very thing that permits us to connect with each other, as he told a 16-year-old fan on his latest entry in the Red Hand Files website.
He took to the site to share some more touching advice to a fan asking a question. It’s been a cathartic release for many fans who have found Cave answering their questions on morality in rock, Grinderman reuniting, his inspirations, the issues facing women, his stance on boycotting cultural, and of course, the sad passing of his son Arthur.
A young fan called Barbara from Italy now asked for advice on how to see herself in a more positive light, especially her perceived body image. She wrote: “I feel very bad about myself, I cannot see anything positive in my body, I hate to look at myself in the mirror and it makes me suffer a lot. I feel like everyone is better than me, even though I did very important things for being just 16 years old. How should I behave? What should I do for myself?”
Cave is a seasoned letter writer and responds with the kind of genuine care and touching delicacy that belies his spooky rock star image. He thanked her “entrusting him with such a courageous and heartfelt question” and went on to describe his own issues with self-perception during his awkward year and shared some advice from his female friends for the young fan.
He goes on: “I took the liberty of discussing it with a number of my female friends and there was not one among them that was not greatly affected by your honesty and that did not understand exactly what you were talking about,” he wrote. “It seems that you are not alone in finding the mirror your enemy, but you are unique in being so open and truthful about your relation to it.”
“For me, the question took me back to my adolescence and the troubled relationship I had with my own reflected image, and those nightmarish teenage years lived inside the pitiless mirror.” He opens up further, “I’m afraid to say this constant self-evaluation does not significantly decrease as you grow older, however it does become more manageable. I live mostly in hotels these days, and as I cautiously enter a different bathroom each night, with its angled mirrors and merciless lighting, I stand before the mirror at my most defenceless and exposed, and watch it do its worst.”
“I often wonder how much accumulated misery a hotel mirror contains as it reflects back at us what appears to be our essential self. But, of course, what the mirror projects is not our true self at all but only our reflected outer-shell. What is virtually impossible to see within a mirror is that the very essence of our humanness, our vulnerability and fragility, is the most beautiful thing we possess.”
He reiterated the change of attitude towards emotion and vulnerability that has been enforced on him and says it shouldn’t “appear to us as shame or weakness, as we attempt to brace ourselves against what we may see as a brutal, unforgiving and judgemental world”.
“But those who have no awareness of their own fragility, who present themselves as overconfident, armoured-up and invulnerable, sacrifice the essence of what makes them both human and beautiful,” he continued. “Vulnerability is the very thing that permits us to connect with each other, to recognise in others the same discomfort they have with themselves and with their place in the world. Vulnerability is the engine of compassion, and can be a superpower, a special vision that allows us to see the quivering, wounded inner world that most of us possess.”
“Barbara, I am happy to hear that you have done important things as a 16 year old, because it is often what we do that moves our attention away from what we think we are, or the way that we think we look. The note of pride in your words could be the very thing that escorts you home, where you fall back through the reflected surface of your body, into your authentic self. Your pain-filled question holds great hope because in order to connect meaningfully with the world we need to have some understanding of its innate tragedy.”
“Paradoxically, the fragility of your question is its immense strength and says something very profound about you as a person; something very beautiful shines through its unhappy words. That body that you ‘can’t see anything positive in’ holds within it an unusually courageous, honest and intelligent heart. Your question is a testament to your specialness, and by asking it you have touched us all.”