“Thirteen to 16 was pretty rough” | Billie Eilish shares her experiences with self-harm and depression
The latest indie darling Billie Eilish has conducted a candid recent interview where she has opened up about her experiences with self-harm and depression. Its yet another open and honest expression from the artist proving to be wise beyond her years.
Eilish was talking with Rolling Stone when she decided to share some pain from her early life, reflecting on a moment when she was 13 and injured herself dancing. Still only 17 years old, she believes “that’s when the depression started”.
“It sent me down a hole,” she told the iconic rock bible. “I went through a whole self-harming phase — we don’t have to go into it. But the gist of it was, I felt like I deserved to be in pain.”
“It’s funny. When anyone else thinks about Billie Eilish at 14, they think of all the good things that happened. But all I can think of is how miserable I was. How completely distraught and confused. Thirteen to 16 was pretty rough.”
The dancing also made Eilish feel very uncomfortable when having to dance in revealing attire. “I was always worried about my appearance,” she added. “That was the peak of my body dysmorphia. I couldn’t look in the mirror at all.”
In the interview, Eilish did explore some happier times and revealed how she is now finding happiness with her work. “Seventeen has probably been the best year of my life, I’ve liked 17.”
She also offered some advice for her fans experiencing a similar situation: “Sometimes I see girls at my shows with scars on their arms, and it breaks my heart. I don’t have scars anymore because it was so long ago. But I’ve said to a couple of them, ‘Just be nice to yourself.’ Because I know. I was there.”
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