Indie rock musician Ryan Adams has issued a lengthy apology following a string of abuse allegations made against him.
As part of a detailed expose published through the New York Times in February 2019, several women made allegations of abuse against Adams. One of the women involved in that report was singer and artist Phoebe Bridgers as well as his ex-wife of ten years Mandy Moore.
Many of the disturbing claims made against the record producer suggested that he would often dangled to the carrot of success, offering to assist the women with their music careers before quickly pursued the women sexually.
Moore, the singer-songwriter and actress who was married to Adams for ten years, has gone on record to accuse her former husband of being controlling and actively stopping her professional career from growing: “His controlling behaviour essentially did block my ability to make new connections in the industry during a very pivotal and potentially lucrative time — my entire mid-to-late 20s,” Moore said in the interview with the New York Times.
While being generally silent on the claims for some 12 months, Adams has penned a detailed letted which was published through The Daily Mail. In the letter, the songwriter apologies for any ways in which he “mistreated people” and went on to explain how he is now seeking professional help.
“All I can say is that I’m sorry. It’s that simple,” Adams wrote. “This period of isolation and reflection made me realize that I needed to make significant changes in my life.
“I’ve gotten past the point where I would be apologizing just for the sake of being let off the hook and I know full well that any apology from me probably won’t be accepted by those I’ve hurt. I get that and I also understand that there’s no going back.
“To a lot of people this will just seem like the same empty bull***t apology that I’ve always used when I was called out, and all I can say is, this time it is different. Having truly realized the harm that I’ve caused, it wrecked me, and I’m still reeling from the ripples of devastating effects that my actions triggered.”
He added: “There is no way to convince people that this time is truly different, but this is the albatross that I deserve to carry with me as a result of my actions.”
Adams’ letter continued to detail: “Realizing the consequences of my actions, I took a hard look inwards and sought to find the truth behind them. What pain was I carrying myself that was so poorly and wrongly being projected onto others?
“I made a promise to myself that no matter what it took, I would get to the root of these issues and finally start to fix myself so I could be a better friend, a better partner, and a better man overall. That being said, no amount of growth will ever take away the suffering I had caused. I will never be off the hook and I am fully accountable for my harmful behavior, and will be for my actions moving forward.
“In my effort to be a better man, I have fought to get sober, but this time I’m doing it with professional help. Sobriety is a priority in my life, and so is my mental health. These, as I’m learning, go hand in hand.
“But I will not bore anyone with stories of my demons or use them to excuse what I’ve done…I hope that the people I’ve hurt will heal. And I hope that they will find a way to forgive me.”