Frances Bean Cobain has opened up about why she still wants to quote her father’s suicide note. The daughter of the Nirvana lead singer Kurt Cobain who took his own life in Frances’ early years was speaking about a new exhibition her mother and sister are curating, when she began to discuss the impact of losing her father and his art.
“I really reverted into myself and really became obsessed with horror movies and comic books and drawing,” she said. “I defaced my room, all the walls and doors and ceiling. I defaced it.
“That was kind of me attempting to take back a sense of self, by creating my own environment I could go into every day and feel as though I was like in my own world, because oftentimes for me fantasy has felt more like reality. Escaping into my own headspace has been more comforting than having to deal with my reality at times.”
That retreat into her own headspace also meant an escape via substances. Now clean and living a sober life she detailed how the extra support from fans helped her along the way.
“The most gratifying thing about making that post was getting messages from people not only saying they understood and related to what I was going through, or they themselves were dealing with it, but the most powerful thing was people telling me that via that post and via me expressing that and having the capacity to share that with the world, that that had encouraged them to face their own addiction issues.”
Frances went on to further explain her use of “peace, love, empathy” which was famously used as part of her father’s suicide note.
“Because I want to reclaim the peace, love, empathy thing as something that’s meant for health and for compassion and for true peace, love, and empathy,” she explained. “Yeah, the association comes from a super dark place. Referencing that is kind of screwed up but at the same time taking the power back is my way of dealing with it.”
The again asked about her father’s opinion on her fledgeling music career she responded “I don’t have an answer for that because I don’t want to speak on someone else’s behalf. I would hope that he would be proud of the human being I am even if he didn’t like the art I am putting out. That’s all I would ask of anyone in my life.”