Dave Grohl has discussed his battle with depression following the death of his Nirvana bandmate Kurt Cobain.
Grohl was 25-years-old when Cobain committed suicide and had been the drummer of Nirvana for four years, reaching mainstream success and selling millions of records. When Cobain’s shocking death occurred, Grohl admitted to not being able to listen to music for years and even now struggles to listen back to old Nirvana records.
“For years I couldn’t even listen to any music, let alone a Nirvana song,” he told GQ. “When Kurt died, every time the radio came on, it broke my heart. I don’t put Nirvana records on, no. Although they are always on somewhere. I get in the car, they’re on. I go into a shop, they’re on. For me, it’s so personal.
“I remember everything about those records; I remember the shorts I was wearing when we recorded them or that it snowed that day. Still, I go back and find new meanings to Kurt’s lyrics,” he added.
“Not to seem revisionist, but there are times when it hits me. You go, ‘Wow, I didn’t realise he was feeling that way at the time’.
“Nirvana, for me, was a personal revolution, I was 21. You remember being 21? You think you know it all. But you don’t. I thought I knew everything. And being in Nirvana showed me how little I really knew.
“They were some of the greatest highs of my life, but also, of course, one of the biggest lows.
“I took a long time,” he said of coping with Cobain’s death. “It was so traumatic. I was depressed from it. It had terrible effects. I had other things in my life at that point that held me back, too. But in the end, time healed it and you end up dealing with it.
“Then, eventually, you come to terms with things… but I don’t know, really. You just have to try to be positive.”