Billie Eilish admits she suffered serious self-doubt about her debut album
Pop sensation Billie Eilish has admitted that she suffered from last-minute self doubt surrounding the release of her debut album When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?
The record, which has gone on to smash sales records, was released back in March to wide acclaim as her cult following survived on a handful of well-directed YouTube videos.
The build up of anticipation for a full length record began to grow to into a feverish demand and, when the 17-year-old singer was preparing to perform for Jimmy Kimmel’s live show just one day before the record was due to be released, a wave of doubt rushed over her.
“I’ve never felt that way, where it’s my child and I don’t want anybody’s hands on it,” Eilish said in a new interview with Billboard. “[It’s rare] to actually really fuck with what you make and create. I didn’t want the world to be able to tell me how they feel about this thing I love.”
Despite her doubts though, Eilish successfully rose to the occasion and her debut record, which went straight in at number one on the Billboard 200, sold an impressive 15,000 copies on vinyl LP upon its initial release which marks the largest sales week of 2019 for a vinyl album.
Only Panic! at the Disco has outsold Eilish when their album, Pray for the Wicked, scooped 26,000 sales on the July 7, 2018. Billboard explains that “in total, since Nielsen began electronically tracking music sale purchases in 1991, When We All Fall Asleep is just the second album by a woman to sell at least 15,000 vinyl LPs in a week.”
Eilish’s album has enjoyed the second-largest week for an album this year in terms of commercial success. Furthermore, When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?, has had the third-largest streaming week of all time for an album by a woman.
In its review of the album, Far Out said that “Eilish’s album was promised as an undefinable and undeniable triumph of youthful energy and creativity.” However, the review struggled to scored three starts out of five and continued: “While in parts this rings true, for the most, the album falls a little short of the meteoric highs we promised ourselves and instead shows a pop princess still finding her kingdom.”
The review adds: “At points aggressive and agitating and at others lulling and simplistic, When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go? falls short of the dream scene we were hoping for.”